Tuesday, August 12, 2014

God Always Has a Plan

I recall the scripture that says, there is a time and place for everything (Ecclesiastes 3:1), this passage tells a piece of my own life-story. For those who do know me, I am only 25 years-old but I do already have a past. Luckily for me I have the best grand-PARENTS any girl could ask for and amongst the many things they taught me, they helped me take my past and see the good in it. God is good-all the time. All the time-God is good. This coined phrase was not known to me until I was well into high school but I certainly believe in it.  

I was born into this world to high school parents. My biological mother was a 16-years-old and my biological father was 17-years-old. Upon my conception they married, although their marriage did not last. At this point in my life I was being raised by my biological-mother. As early as two-years-old, my grand-PARENTS (my biological mothers father and stepmother) were taking me to the Catholic Church with them every Sunday morning they had me.  

My early years were difficult. For many of my early years I was shuffled from house to house. Because of my own experience I hold the belief that many children of divorced parents get shuffled around way too much. Sometimes said child(ren) feel unwanted or even used, as the child(ren) become the sounding board of one parent talking bad about the other parent. [For the child's sake parents should at least try and be civil with one another.]

There are many things about my childhood I could talk about but for sake of privacy I will not mention. Let me just say that my childhood was a living hell. Many things took place that should never be imposed to a innocent child.

When you grow up, you are going to live in a cardboard box on the streets because you are stupid. 

Statements such as this one above were being thrown at me by one particular individual on a regular basis. How could someone be so cruel? Throughout my life thus far there have been plenty of negative people in my life that told me that I would not grow up to be a successful adult, or I would graduate from college because I was not college material, or I would not be accepted into graduate school, and certainly not graduate with a Masters Degree or even be successful.

Based on the title on this blog God Always Has a Plan you may infer that I did not share all of this in order to receive pitty, condolences or I'm sorrys. Rather, I wrote this blog because I have overcome many hardships and I continue to work through my issues and I am also continuing to better myself as an empowered woman. With that being said I want to leave you with a piece of advice.      

DO NOT EVER let anyone tell you you cannot do something for any reason what-so-ever.

My grand-PARENTS always told me I could do anything I put my mind to and I cannot sit here and type this and say that I always believed them, it is not easy, but with a lot of work you really can do anything you put your mind to.

No matter what disadvantages you have in your life you can and will overcome them. "Nothing is impossible with God." There have always been challenges in my life and they continue to pop up. These challenges are what I call "brick walls." When a brick wall comes into my life, I have to work through it, or break through it. Throughout my lifes challenges I have never given up. The words "give up" or any of the words derivatives have never been in my vocabulary. Giving up has never been an option for me.

I may not have graduated Magna Cum Laude or with some other type of honor, but I graduated. My future began when I graduated from a Catholic Preparatory High School, Marion Catholic High School. My journey to higher education began immediately after I graduated from high school. I attended Ohio Dominican University where I proudly graduated in 2012 with a Bachelor's Degree in Theology and a minor in Art History.

My adventure did not end there, from ODU I went on to get my Master's Degree. I was accepted into the University of Dayton, and as of August 4, 2014 I have proudly graduated. My final GPA was 3.45. Like I said before, I did not and never have graduated with honors but I have two degrees and many people doubted I would achieve a Bachelor's Degree yet alone a Master's Degree.

If this piece of paper I now hold was not so important, I would tear it up into many pieces so that I could share it with everyone who has supported me along the way, just like Cady did in Mean Girls, although she tore a crown into multiple pieces!

I would not be the person who I am today without God and all of the other wonderful people he has placed in my life. Thank you all.

Remember you are loved!

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Mini Courses and Workshops

I have been racking my brain for days and maybe even perhaps weeks. I have been concerned about how I will/can make a difference. I have been influenced by others, religious and lay, who blog about their faith or religious topics on a regular basis. After much deliberation, I thought to myself, "why shouldn't I" or "why can't I" blog about the faith too. Therefore, I have changed my blog/vlog from being just random events that happen in my daily, crazy life.

Many things have happened to me lately. I have made many changes in my life. After living community for two years, I made the difficult decision to discontinue my discernment with the Sisters of the Precious Blood. My decision was made with a heavy and torn heart. Since my announcement I have graduated with my Masters Degree in Pastoral Ministry and I have been unable to find full-time ministry.

As if the stress of leaving community and finding a job was not enough, I have been challenged by severe pain and swelling in my feet. My left foot being worse at this time. My foot surgeon predicted that I may need surgery as an adult, as I had already had reconstructive surgeries as a child due to a congenitive issue. With this unexpected and poor timed news, I will be having surgery next week (Thursday, August 14th). Everyone keeps telling me that God has a plan for me and that I need to take care of my health now, rather than worrying about finding ministry right now. Perhaps they are right.

I have since moved back home with my parents, even though the plan was to find a full-time job and get my own place--I have been turned down from six different parishes. Due to my circumstances, I am going to do what I can. Therefore, I have offered my services, as a Pastoral Minister, to my friend and pastor of the parish I grew up in, Sacred Hearts in Cardington, OH. This is the same parish that burnt down to the ground on Thanksgiving Day in 2013. The parish community is still raising monies to rebuild the Church and facilities with this ongoing project Father is pretty busy and I am sure he can use the help.

It is because of all of these said events and certainly many other formative events that I have decided to begin focusing on putting together "mini courses" or "workshops" for the people of our parish and surrounding community as well as the virtual community (you) who may be reading/watching my blog/vlog. The topics and dates are yet to be decided and announced. I have many different emotions about this. I am excited and yet I am nervous at the same time. It is like I have to pinch myself every morning when I wake up so that I may realize and remember that, yes, I really do have a Masters Degree. Even so, I still do not feel privileged or schooled enough to share my faith and knowledge with others. I still feel like I would rather be in a lecture hall listening to someone else preach about the faith. With that I realize that this will be a learning experience for both me and for the community.

I hope that you continue to follow me on this journey of faith.

Some potential topics may include:

The Seven Sacraments

  • Baptism
  • Confirmation
  • Eucharist
  • Reconciliation 
  • Anointing of the Sick
  • Holy Orders 
  • Marriage 
Catholic Spirituality 
  • Reconciliation
  • Contemplation
  • The Mass
  • The Bible
  • Fasting
  • Spiritual Reading
  • The Rosary
The Theological Virtues 
  • Faith
  • Hope
  • Love
Ways of Praying
  • Vocal
  • Meditation 
  • Contemplative 
The Seven Petitions 
  • "Hallowed Be Thy Name"
  • "Thy Kingdom Come"
  • "Thy Will Be Done" 
  • "Give Us This Our Daily Bread" 
  • "Forgive Us Our Tresspasses" 
  • "Lead Us Not into Temptation" 
  • "Deliver Us From Evil" 
The Four Marks of the Church 

  • One 
  • Holy 
  • Apostolic 
  • Catholic 

Remember, you are loved!